No Need to Say Goodbye

Summit Semester Rebekah Heinle 2016When I started this blog post, I didn’t really know what to write about. So, I sat down at a table in the dining room with a couple friends. We started chatting about random subjects and then the song “The Call” was mentioned. One of the girls at the table had never heard it, so we decided to play it. As the song progressed and the lyrics “I’ll come back when you call me, no need to say goodbye” were sung, we all made eye contact with each other and suddenly the tears were flowing. The feeling of pending loss swelled up in our hearts. We all held hands and allowed ourselves to feel it for those short minutes.

As the days pass and Summit Semester is coming towards its end, it is so easy to focus on how awful it is going to be when we leave — to focus on that sadness for too long. This is something I’ve been dwelling on for the last week. It was starting to affect how I interacted with people. I pulled away to soften the blow. But after that song was over today, I realized that I still have 23 days to grow in love for these wonderful people that God has put into my life for a short three months. I can still learn from them, and they might be able to learn from me.

This was a fantastic realization, but as I think more about it, I concluded that what makes this place and the relationships here beautiful is that it’s not easy. In fact, it has been rather hard. There have been arguments, tensions, and hurts. And yet, the closer we get to the end, the more I appreciate the difficulty of the past three months. They have helped me grow in my appreciation and awareness of others. To watch my words and actions with a carefulness that I didn’t have before.

So, today I have decided to spend my last 23 days in thankfulness and joy for the lessons I have learned and the friends I have made. I’m sure I won’t be able to succeed every day in my goal to be more joyful, because I love these people dearly and will feel their absence from my life with every fiber of my being. But if I choose to focus on that joy, it will allow me to use what is left of Summit Semester to grow even more. Whether it be spiritually, educationally, or relationally.

I think there is something sincere and rich about Regina Spektor’s song “The Call.” From here on out, the lyrics will remind me of this wonderful place, the people, the laughs, the tears, and the adventures. So, here are some of the words that I will cherish for years to come.

“Just because everything’s changing, doesn’t mean it’s never been this way before. All you can do is try to know who your friends are, as you head off to the war. Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light. You’ll come back when it’s over, no need to say goodbye.

Now we’re back to the beginning, it’s just a feeling and no one knows yet. But just because they can’t feel it too doesn’t mean that you have to forget. Let your memories grow stronger and stronger till they’re before your eyes. You’ll come back when they call you, no need to say goodbye.”

Rebekah Heinle, known to us as Bekah, hails from Manns Choice, Pennsylvania. Bekah is looking forward to building good community while at Summit, and hopes to better understand how to think about politics with a Christian worldview. She enjoys reading books such as Pride and Prejudice or Unbroken, and baking delicious cupcakes. With a gift for unconditionally loving those who feel alone, unaccepted, or excluded, Bekah loves working with children in whatever capacity she can. She currently works at a coffee shop, but after Semester, she plans to move to California to live with her sister, and attend California University to major in Child Development.